Lots of personal thoughts today but sometimes you need to share. This picture below sums up how I felt after last week. It was one of those weeks where I felt like I couldn’t keep my head above water. I got my first taste of how there are no days off in motherhood. All I wanted to do was sit and mediate for a few hours but that doesn’t get to happen with a six month old that doesn’t like to nap. I think I had two emotional breakdown cry fests in my living room floor. During one of them, I think Logan was actually a little concerned looking. They both made me feel better. Sometimes you just need to cry.
The week was filled with doctors appointments, teaching Pilates, a job interview, taking care of the little man, trying to cook dinners, squeezing in my workouts and planning out some short term business goals. I don’t want to get into too many details about all the doctor appointments but I am so tired of going to see specialists for Logan. Each visit seems to take an emotional toll on me but I am thankful so far he seems to be completely healthy. On top of that, I know it’s time to say goodbye to breastfeeding. Logan is probably only 25% breastfed now but I am having a harder time letting go than I ever thought I would. Each day I tell Ryan, today is the last day. At the time I feel free and happy. Then the next day comes along and I continue. Breastfeeding was never the easiest for me and I had to work really hard at it. It consumed so much of my life over the past six months.
Friday afternoon, I got away from the house for a little while to meet up with some of my mom friends at Greenlake. We had a little picnic and enjoyed the beautiful 70 degree Seattle weather. I love that Seattle has such amazing parks and so many places with water. My sweet friend Lauren gave me flowers and I seriously couldn’t have needed them more. Over the weekend, they kept bringing a smile to my face.
By Saturday, all I felt was pure exhaustion. Ryan is still working at Seattle Tennis Club on the weekend in addition to the long hours of his legal job during the week. I made Logan a batch of green beans and didn’t do much around the house Saturday. Saturday night, we went to watch Ryan’s tennis match on the east side.
It’s now Sunday and Logan is down for a nap. I have a big week coming up and there are no doctor appointments involved! I hope to be better planning meals this week or maybe I should say executing them. Thursday afternoon I put four packs of chicken in the crockpot. I like to cook a lot at one time, shred it and then put in bags to use or freeze for chicken dishes. Friday morning, I woke up to a nasty smelling house and chicken still cooking away in the crockpot. I hope to do better this week! Now if I can just relax like Sumo does in the laundry basket.